Time was suspended. The silver
lining no one remembers,
or maybe the curse,
that now that it’s passed we are still there
still crossing those long spaces, making our small rooms.
In short, it withdrew, in fits and starts,
like the burps of a king reading proclamation.
The year, the magic, the place. Our palace,
torn down, condemned,
foundation filled with brack water
hidden in brush behind the grocery store.
What was it like?
Easier to try and relive last nights dream.
When I see the drunks, the whiz-kids,
When I smell this new concept,
mounted in panic,
of this as the irrational age,
the age where unreason is an invasive bloom,
I know it is nothing but dim scrambling,
backsliding into perversity
the desire to return
to that lost magic,
the age of ease and wonder
that now that it’s gone as if never happened
that now that it’s gone will never return.
The video footage is boggling,
but I don’t like to watch it.
I was there, I don’t need evidence.
Time was a feather,
suspended in a beer bottle.
With a cat in our lap we’d duck through the low door.
Looking back and talking, our head bangs the frame.
Falling to crush the cat
hiss becomes a cheep,
the cat bursts into many mice.
The welt raises into an egg.
We sit on,
wiping the blood off with spit.
the hatch finally opens,
the field buckles and curves,
a giant scarred hand clenches the dirt into a stone.
The dead beckon from the depth of their mist
through the portal.
The little baby hatchlings are so cute!
Fuzzy, running in circles.
Now we’re a family.
Everything was that way then,
when we had our magic.
Not fun all the time, not by any measure.
But in retrospect
more fun on a bad day then the best possible day now.
We sit dull, nothing to do, nothing happens,
throw a spoon in the air and it just falls on the table.
The machines do all the work, and the chemicals,
they are so eager, constructing developments
and strip malls on the head of a pin,
robotic gyrations in a simulation titty bar.
The first night of the month we relieve ourselves
of our gov’t dole.
Packing the house.
Sticking to plastic.
It is always hot, everyone is stupid.
I retreat from my world,
the possibility of the future presents me with nothing but ennui.
My voice gives out around ,
I know I have cancer.
I know that I’m bitter
the taste of the magic continues to linger.
How can I love this world when I know I have left my palace.
My palace of magic, my deeds and my people?